Stabat Mater
- release date: 2017.10.27
- format: Cassette / Digital / WebGL
- label: Auris Apothecary
Stabat Mater is a 20 movement cycle of audio/visual ecstatic visions, and is being released as a
purely musical work on cassette tape and as an interactive audio/visual web based experience.
Stabat Mater is heavily inspired by the
visions of female Christian mystics Hildegard von Bingen and Teresa of Ávila. The lyrics for Stabat Mater
include adaptations of writings from these mystics fused together with text taken from
surrealist poet Aase Berg's With Deer and Dark Matter (both translated by Johannes Göransson
and published by Black Ocean).
Lyrics
- 01. wounds renew 02:58
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wounds split open through the cracks of my skin
hands anointed and fingers curl
my head is immersed in pools of white foam
I am bathed in liquid
it pours itself throughout
it pours itself throughout my limbs
I search inward, washed clean in milk
it will come through my eyes from the other side
- 02. mother weeping 03:56
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body cast in milk
come into you soft as sleep
I am bathed in liquid
put my fist through my mouth and pull the roots out of the ground
my eyes filled fast with milk
I weep from this place
I weep from my throat and swim alongside this tide
body cast in milk
I shall come through your eyes
- 03. nourishment 03:33
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my feeble heart
my feeble heart beats through this enclosed shell
exploding waves break
I drag myself
a slit begins to dissolve through these heavy waters
thrusting my body across netted fibers and pounding veins
- 04. she beneath 00:50
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gasping for oxygen
an entire lung full of salty air
throbbing fiercely
throbbing
- 05. burning sphere 01:09
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I swell with fatigue
burning sphere pressing me down
I swell with fatigue
burning sphere pressing me down
- 06. fragile veils 02:13
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I have cried out tearfully to you
her face appears as if it is pure water
she touches me
I am covered with fragile veils
glowing like a thousand eggs
I flow forth
I flow forth from this froth-filled watercourse
- 07. black vein 02:01
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I wake in the middle of the night from feverish waves
silent clusters form
dew collects on my eyelids
this night fever lowers through me
breathes against my chest
my fingers search the bottom of the lake
for the water lily’s black vein
to find
to find my nourishment
- 08. on your knees 05:03
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in the distance the wind is slowly dying
the night of nights is coming
but still my fetus flower rests untouched
and still my fingers search the bottom
a wreath of water encircles my torso
here glowing petals stick to the thin branch
there is a scab on me
this water runs slow and sweet
glowing through my milk skin
I will bend backward through the pain
sink back through the bottom
I puke, it runs slowly out of my slack mouth
I sink downwards through this sweet meat
- 09. shell 01:23
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I weep from my throat and swim alongside this tide
my feeble heart beats through this enclosed shell
exploding waves break
I drag myself
exploding waves break
- 10. fount of love 04:36
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I drag myself
a slit begins to dissolve through these heavy waters
thrusting my body across netted fibers and pounding veins
gasping for oxygen
an entire lung full of salty air
throbbing
throbbing fiercely
I swell with fatigue
burning sphere pressing me down
bending the burning sphere that encircles me
I have cried out tearfully to you
her face appears as if it pure water
she touches me
covered skin with fragile veils
glowing like a thousand eggs
I flow forth
I flow forth from this froth-filled
from this froth-filled watercourse
- 11. pierce me through 00:55
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wounds split open between the cracks of my skin
- 12. nailed to my body 02:17
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- 13. veil of water 00:52
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a wreath of reflective water encircles my torso
bright light white as snow
- 14. scab 02:41
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trembling
trembling foliage encircles my chest
glowing petals stick to the thin branch
there is a scab
there is a scab on me
I will bend backwards through the bottom of light
I puke calmly
it runs slowly out of my mouth
without moving
without moving a single nerve
- 15. grief divine 02:19
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- 16. fetus lily 04:37
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I wake
I wake in the middle of the night from feverish waves
silent
silent clusters form
dew collects on my eyelids
this night fever lowers through me
breathes against my chest
my fingers search the bottom of the lake
to find
to find my nourishment
in the distance the wind is slowly dying
I am coming
I search for this vein
a wreath of reflective water droplets encircle my torso
bright light white as snow
transparent as crystal
from my throat down to my breasts
I glow with scales
mirrors of scales in a row
- 17. cast down the flesh of your body 01:37
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with fingers I have sought you
maneuver the body across a wide and deep lake
I can hear the waves break
I can hear my heart scream
I will go across
I will go across the deep, deep lake
- 18. feeble heart 02:27
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this night fever lowers through me
breathes against my chest
my fingers search the bottom of the lake
but still, but still I search to find my nourishment
- 19. half-open mouth 01:39
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with fingers
with fingers I have sought you
I will go across
through the mouth like the mouth of a well
sharp branches beat thorns against my skin
I utter several moans
- 20. streams of mercy 02:35
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